A little bit of rest, my brain is back and i start gettin all philosophical

i think there are two types of fake. one is a fake that seeks to deceive. and then there is the type of fake that has to do more with integrity. that claims to be something that, in the end, is not. the sort of fake like a foundation, that over time, crumbles beneath your feet. constantly we present ourselves to each other. we're constantly in a game of give and receive. we're, on one hand, offering something to people close to us, at work or at home, that they (to some degree) base their life on, or their day on, or a particular decision on, or in cycling: a race on. then on the other hand, the other direction, we're (to some degree) basing our life on them. ..how's it go: "relationship is a two way street" . . . in cycling there is a lot finger pointing. at least, from what i have seen. . but the most respectable people in the industry are the ones whose finger pointing is done only at one self. knowing that in life, in ALL aspects, there is a concept of continuous improvement. like the samurai code, or like the Jesus concept of "let he who is perfect cast the first stone" .. mob mentally normally leads to disaster. normally, an inappropriate and ineffective reaction to a given situation. it's just people letting off steam, for their own sake, not truly trying to fix what ever needs fixing (as they present themselves as doing). yesterday, moninger and i did a PR group ride from some bike shop in Minneapolis MN to Stillwater to watch the last stage of the Nature Val GP. we stood atop the climb on the short circuit, watching the hurtin face show as dudes/colleagues wrestled with their bikes up and over the 22 percent gradient climb. there amidst the pro's were a couple amateurs. Like Corey Collier for example who rode himself into 12 place GC while pro's alike fell off of the back of the race. . . now, i know, some of these am's are talented. but, maybe they're also in a good spot: under privileged. they haven't yet been corrupted by the pampering of the professional life. . they are still under the belief (because they have no option) that they them self are the only person who is going to keep them in the race. and if not, nearby is no one upon which to blame things. there is only them self. because, honestly, there is room for improvement. IN the race, and in preparation for the the race. if you wanted to get in a debate at a dinner table, i know this theory doesn't hold all the water. pro's have a long and more grueling season of racing; they are not in control of their race schedule. . but they also have a lot of things taken care of/for them. but what if you had the mentality of an am, but the resources of a pro? what would you get?